Don't hate yourself. You didn't pick up the blade and strike her skin. She did that herself. While you and I both wish she hadn't, we know she does. We can't live our lives blaming ourselves. I mean sure we can because on some level its partially our fault. But on another level we didn't make her pick up the blade. We both love her, and wish she wouldn't hurt herself. We've both tried to get her to stop, and we did for a while. But she picked back up the blade. It really is an addiction in its self. I wish i could do something to help her. I wonder sometimes who really the cause, Is it her parents. Me? Her love life? Her school life? Alot of us are hurting inside, but i don't hurt myself even more. I wonder sometimes if it's just for attention. And then I have to mentally slap myself for thinking that about her. I don't know what to do anymore.
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